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weekly retro #29: (close to) an ego death by wax and words

the latter half of august is so weird because it's so hot but the fall season is being rolled out in the form of schools going back into session, autumnal merchandise being set on shelves, and the holiday season for candle-makers has gone into effect. meanwhile, i'm like...

animated gif of me on aerial silks in a swinging inversion, switching which leg i hold onto behind me

weeeeeeeee

three of my handmade cubic/pixel art inspired tomato candles and 2 little round ones on a table, ready to be packed and shipped

this week i hit 6 weeks of running bugs rock. the first wave of friends and follower sales has died down a bit which is great timing, because packaging and shipping takes a lot of energy and time and i really need to go heads down on what the fall/holiday products are going to be.

a two part graphic, the top saying "just make it exist first" with an imperfect circle and imperfect illustration of a street scene, and the bottom says "you can make it good later" with a perfect circle and more refined street scene

the above graphic came across my tumblr feed this week at a very opportune time. experimenting on a new candle idea using new and challenging techniques while also writing a talk for monday's inaugural brooklyn web workers meetup - where i am ultimately explaining to a bunch of tech workers why i am no longer a tech worker - had me get about as close to an ego death as i can imagine someone can get to while making a candle and presentation slides.

photo of my black cat Pumagreg with one of his paws on a lemon. he looks like he is concentrating on something, clearly distracting him from knocking the lemon off the pad of paper i left it resting on. we will not be zesting this one.

but when pumagreg gives you lemons...the fact that i'm writing this talk while i'm going through this creative challenge is weirdly great as it's forcing me to face lessons i've experienced in my candle-making and small business-making that i had already come across before during my time in tech/corporate - which is ultimately the thesis of the talk i'm giving. nice job on the lemonade, jennifer.

photo of the very blue sky and it's covered in a sheet of textured cloud

the weather this week has been amazing, with even a couple days where i didn't have to run the air conditioner. the energy bills in new jersey have skyrocketed, meanwhile my tolerance for the heat has not. how curious!

photo of a table at the bookbinding workshop with a "day 5 hardcover" packet, hard board, a cutting mat, ruler, glue brush, my textblock of paper, scissors and a box cutter

saturday was the last installment of the book-binding workshop i'd been attending at the library. i think half of us showed up, i assume the others were on vacation. i feel like they missed the best part!

photo of the top view of my hardcover book, there’s a peek of the blue endpapers and little blue headband on the spine. it’s a pretty good job for my first one!

here is my first ever hardcover book that i've bound! when i was gluing down the pink paper to the cover and closed it just to see what it looked like, i was like "wait, why does this look like a real book" lol. i'm so happy with how it came out and i will definitely be making more.

Photo of my hardcover book that I made opened up to show the iridescent bluish green endpaper

it's funny, refreshing even, how the rollercoaster of emotions this week was mostly driven by me creating things, not by a c-level executive's decisions. my mistakes empowering me to level up and try again to make something people love, versus making me feel like i'm in trouble over something i don't really even find joy in...this week had its challenges but it was necessary to remind me i'm on a very good path.

things i enjoyed this week

jamie's on his way over now so we can work on our talk for chinatown.js on tuesday, with the day before being my brooklyn web workers talk. look at me, leaving tech but fully booked up on the tech meetup circuit!

xoxo jenn

this was published August 24, 2025 under living working tech weekly-retro jersey-city bugs-rock candles candle-making tech-talks aerial-yoga pumagreg